|34 weeks, bending over to find toes|
Remember a month ago when I said I was panicking? I hit the 30-week mark and suddenly realized that I for rillz am going to have to get this baby out somehow and that I absolutely cannot go through a repeat of what happened last time. I kept running every possible option and scenario in my head, trying to figure out which ones would lessen my chances of a re-broken butt hole. The most obvious answer would be to bypass that whole area entirely with a C-section, but I'm also worried about surgery and recovery and if that's absolutely necessary. And hey, while I'm at it, let's worry about breastfeeding. And about becoming a bloodless shell-shocked zombie who can't bond with her baby. Let's worry about aaaaaalllllll of it!
Even though I have no more answers now than I did then, I feel like I'm getting my body and my head a bit better prepared for whatever is going to happen. And maybe no one cares and this will just be for my own brain-dumping purposes, but here's what I've been up to:
(Disclaimer: These things may help me have a better labor/delivery/recovery/breastfeeding experience. Or they may not. But they are helping me feel calmer and more proactive now, which I will absolutely take.)
A good chat with my OB about my tearing worries. We agree that forceps are out and he wrote it down in my file. I may still Sharpie a message to that effect on my inner thighs when the time comes, though. He doesn't think a scheduled C-section is warranted, but is absolutely super fine with inducing me a week early if I'm worried about having another elephant baby. Or hey, even if the baby is small, we can still induce! Also, have I considered how much easier that will make arranging child care for TDL? (Hoo boy, Utah, with your scheduled induction ways.) At the moment, I'm not planning to take him up on the offer.
A tour of the labor & delivery unit of the hospital. I got to see the rooms and all the gear they keep in them (birth balls, birth bars, etc.). Now I know to ask for a room with a longer couch (for my tall husband) near the Jacuzzi, just in case I want to try that thing out. And I saw the snack room where they have a soda fountain, bags of chips, fruit, and cookies for birth partners to munch on. I am not allowed to have any of those things, but they'll give me popsicles and put flavored syrup on my ice chips if I ask. So that's something.
Morning walks. GH and I have started getting up around 6:30am most mornings to exercise. He gets up this early because he has willpower. I get up this early because hey, I'm awake anyway. He goes downstairs and gets on the elliptical, and I go outside and walk around the neighborhood while it still feels nice and cool. Then I come home and do this 20-minute video podcast from Mamaste Yoga (Mamaste, get it?) to stretch out.
Eating Less Babybel. Also less Top Ramen. I gained more weight with TDL than I probably needed to, and this time around I'm trying to eat better (less sugar, less empty carbs). If my recent peach cobbler binging episode is any indicator, I may have some room to improve there.
Hypnobabies. I've started re-reading the materials and listening to the CDs, and it's amazing how much more positive I feel after a few weeks of brain-washing. The first few times I listened to the "Joyful Pregnancy Affirmations" track on my morning walk and heard, "My baby is in the perfect position to birth smoothly and easily," I may have snorted and muttered some unprintable things. But now that it's kicking in I'm all, "That's right! I do deserve an easy, fast and completely comfortable birthing! Woo hoo!"
Pelvic tilts, Kegels, yadda. When I remember to. Also, starting soon if I can drum up the willpower, Perineal Massage. Blergh.
Foot zones from a Hippie Foot Zoner.
Massages/Adjustments from a Hippie Chiropractor.
|Red Raspberry Leaf Tea|
Red Raspberry Leaf Tea. I will start drinking this as soon as it arrives from Amazon (should be today). It's supposed to tone my uterus and lead to a shorter labor. I almost suggested this to my sister Jenny but then I remembered how fast her last labor was and figured I'd better not unless I want my new niece to be born in their driveway. Plus they live in the mountains where the cougars would be all, "Mmmm . . . afterbirth." Not really the scenario anyone wants.
|Five/Six Week Formula (herbal tincture by Butterfly Expressions)|
Some Crazy Potion. My hippie foot zoner used this during her most recent pregnancies and recommends it to speed up labor and recovery. We shall see.
|Motherlove More Milk Plus ($15 at Amazon)|
Milk-making stuff. In case I need help in that department. Because no way am I doing that whole "drink fennel seeds steeped in milk and then go vomit into your sink" thing again. Also have started re-reading some of my breastfeeding books, and man some of those authors sound like judgmental cows.
Prayer/Blessings. I've been doing a lot of praying on my own and with GH that things will go smoothly and well, no matter what kind of delivery we end up having. The other big thing I pray for is that I will be able to make the best decisions for me and the baby, and if there's something I need to do or need to know, that I will get the message.
And now I'd better stop ignoring the yells of the Original Bottom-Damage-Causer and get him up from his nap.